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EXPERIENCING MY FIRST BURNOUT

I've been so unmotivated to attend my classes, even those that are taught by decent teachers like my Statistics teacher, I've finally read enough articles about it and saw that it was burnout. Now, I don't know what to do. I've been feeling overwhelm by all the pressures around me all the sudden; The need to always study and get perfect grades in my school; the need to find ways to earn money, to help my parents; the need to study for college entrance exams; the need to do many household chores; the need to diet and exercise to lose weight; the exhausting mind of an overthinker, all of this has contributed to my burnout. I know what are the causes of my burnout, I know what it is. It can be easily identified, however I don't know what to do at this point in my life. I've been complaining that I am so unmotivated to study for the past month because of my teachers and their douchebaggery attitude, but I don't know why I am so unmotivated to study to

JUST AN UPDATE

I'm so freaking unmotivated and my life is pretty much falling apart and people seem to think I still have it together. I don't know what to do. It started ten days ago, ten days ago I lost my phone because I left it in the tricycle I rode. I immediately chased after the tricycle and the driver and I know the tricycle driver saw me. I swear to the gods that I saw him look back and decided not to come back. Of course, this freaked me out. I have my PayPal account, my bank account, explicit pictures, and a lot of social media in there. I immediately factory reset my phone from my computer just to make sure none of those are going to be used. After it was erased, I tried calling it relentlessly and texting it non-stop and no one answered or bothered to give me my phone back. This sucks and I told to myself that I'll never ever trust strangers again. This is where my life begun to spiral down. I'm a pretty cheap person but because of the fear that my parents will

I HATE THIS FUCKING SCHOOL, GET ME OUT OF HERE

Reading the title of this blog post I assume there is no confusion with my feelings regarding with my school: PUP. Short story time: I am studying in a school named Polytechnic University of the Philippines more specifically in the Senior High School department. We would commonly call the school 'PUPSHS'. I've been studying in the state university's junior high department-LHS (Laboratory High School) and for the first 5 years of my life I am hating it here. Don't get me wrong, I hated being here before, but the only difference is, I hate being here now because of my teachers not because of my classmates ( well, some of them ).  Let me brief you in my situation first. I had an indifference feeling when it comes to my first semester here in PUP. I had an activist teacher, teachers who doesn't show up in any of our classes, a lot of video projects, and boring teachers, however, I didn't hate my first semester here. Because of those issues, my professors b

THE SOGIE BILL AND WHY IT MATTERS

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Chances are you've heard of the SOGIE bill and if you haven't, let me explain them to you. SOGIE bill is an Act Prohibiting Discrimination on the Basis of Sexual Orientation or Gender Identity or Expression (SOGIE) and Providing Penalties Therefor, basically the bill will be passed to make sure that everybody not inside the spectrum of heterosexuality will be protected under the law. There's not much to tackle with the bill, it will give the LGBTQIA+ community the same laws that protects straight people, so it should not be that 'controversial'. But nope, here's an example: The person who posted this is a friend, not just a work or school friend, but a best friend. She is one of the closest and bestest friend I have in that hellhole and yet she denies the existence of the SOGIE bill? Why? She says that Sections 4D and 4O will ruin families therefore it is not following God's will. Here is what Section 4D says: Imposing disciplinary sanctions, pen

I'M SORRY

I haven't been able to provide my readers any content in this blog due to a lot of happenings in my life. I don't know how to handle stress, depression, anger, and all of that, that I become burn out with writing. I am still trying to write. I have a lot of drafts that I want to write soon and publish but I can't do because I'm too stressed to even put my thoughts into words. But, the good news is that summer vacation is fast approaching and the current school year will end by April 19. I will make sure to write more and be more into writing, so please bear my disappearance and read my new posts. Again, I am so sorry for not taking this writing thing more seriously, I will make sure to be a whole lot better before March ends. I made a  Facebook page , make sure you like it!!! This is my HubPage , make sure to support my HubPage account as well. It's a writing platform and instead of writing personal anecdotes like the ones I show in my blog, my HubPage

7 DAYS IN 2018 - EVERYTHING SUCKS!

Today is January 7th of 2018, and my body is filled with nothing but resentment, anger, and rage. Let me tell you why. I currently have a lot of stories about to go up but none of them is long enough for my ego to consider them as stories, so I'll just conjoint all stories into one big post. First of all the stories is our Family Reunion We don't celebrate Christmas because its against our religion to celebrate Christmas. Their reasoning is its a Pagan holiday, it used to be called Saturnalia, and there's not enough evidence in the Bible to support Christ's birth in December 25. I am okay with this because my grandma's side always held an annual family reunion therefore I can be with the whole family.  During our family reunion we have a tradition where all working adults would sit in front and all unemployed kids/adults would fall in line to collect money. There would also be games where one can earn extra income. For me, being the scrooge that I am

TOP 10 K-POP SONGS (2017)

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First of all, I would like to clarify that what I'm about to write is my opinion, everything in this list are songs these 2017 that I enjoy. I am not going to judge them by how they were wrote, rhythm, or stuff like that because I don't know how to do it in the first place. That being said, here's my top 10 K-Pop songs of 2017: 10. MAMAMOO - Yes I am I am not a huge fan of Mamamoo, in fact, I kind of abhor them earlier this year especially with all the fan war occurring with Mamamoo fans and LEGGOS. That being said, I realized that I'm becoming a judgmental close minded prick and I need to find an actual reason to hate them . I didn't find any, so I started listening to their music and saw that I actually like them. As if that isn't enough, I went down the rabbit hole and started watching "MAMAMOO perverted moments" and I found out that they are really good people and I started liking them (also, Hwasa is so hot in the music vi